”If you can’t explain it simply you have not understood enough” -Albert Einstein

In just a little over 5 minutes this clip deepened my understanding of the most important theory behind Complex PTSD as well as the only way to heal. Just watch it! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27FSiBqEDUs The way he compares the negative neurological response to alternative chosen (healing) activities/interaction.... How using the Wheel of Consent can help us recognize …

She came up those stairs

The first of March 2014.... We had talked online and on the phone for a week. I had taken a train 400 miles but had to wait almost three hours before she turned up and two before she even answered my calls. She had forgotten to turn it on.... In control of things even before …

Nya tag….. på Svenska

Jag prövar att börja skriva även på Svenska. När jag skall berätta min egen historia så blir det så mycket enklare att skriva på modersmålet till människor som lever i mitt eget land och egen kultur. Skälet att jag började på Engelska vara mycket att jag var rädd för att bli alltför ensam här om …

Adult Children of Narcissists

Uppdate 2018-06-01 I wrote this post when I had just been able to break out of isolation by attending ACA meetings. Since then I have found A LOT that I do not like with ACA. Some people describe AA as an organisation designed by narcissists for narcissists. I am not in AA but I have …

She is not there…….

Writing about my ex I used the words Evil Ways and of course my brain made yet another musical association. Evil Ways...... Santana....? I went to YouTube and found a lot that I could relate to narcissism power/dynamics.... https://youtu.be/EVeHHmGcoNk https://youtu.be/nPauXWjY4T8 And when you are discarded.... https://youtu.be/FYcyf2Mu0-c And of course..... Black Magic Woman, even though it´s originally a …

It takes two to Tango

There is A LOT about narcissism on the internet though very much of it is from a Victim perspective, including stuff from well known coaches and therapists..... It's all about Them.... They are Evil and You/We are targeted simply because that we are so Good. The cruel truth about narcissistic relationships is that you are …

Immobilize without Fear

I have met my ghosts I have been able to get rid of my own false (narcissistic) self though I am still fighting my fears of being unseen/rejected. Every step I take to make real connection, to tell some more of my history is a step that puts me at high risk of being triggered …